Posted by Nina on Sep 13, 2006
Seriously.. what the fuck is up with my birthdays? I can’t even remember a birthday that wasn’t drama filled, I didn’t end up sobbing myself to sleep, hanging up on some family member for being an insensitive prick, my dad didn’t walk out, or that my mom didn’t ignore me. I seriously expected this year to be different… not so much because I was older, not because I no longer have ‘parties’.. I guess every year I just pray that the day goes off without a hitch… It’s not even 9:30am and I am already upset, I have hung up on a relative, and have a day full of more ‘fun’ to look forward to. That’s it. I am officially done having birthdays. I don’t want cake, or presents, or cards, or anything next year. Call it an official request. It’s like.. some time after being 5 they decided that I had had enough birthdays and decided to make this “Holy Shit On Everyone” day.
My husband tries and tries and tries to shield me from drama, and make every year better than the last… but I always end up angry and crying over some crazy member of my family… most people only have to worry about aging a year on their birthday… I constantly worry about what drama plans to unfold. Well, I am done. I am not ungrateful for his attempts, I know minor upsets are common and such is life, but I am NOT talking about little spats that your over in 15mins.. I am talking about deep, heart wrenching, horrible things that happen every year… on my birthday.
So.. thats it. No more birthdays. PERIOD! I am too tired and too old for this shit.
UPDATE: A special thank you shout out to my friend Beth lizmybit who told me to ignore my crazy family and have a knock out time with my hubby tonight and screen my calls.. Good advice!!
Sergey came home for lunch with a bunch of beautiful red roses, a balloon, and a card with a cute little Yorkie (who looks like Bella!) wearing a princess crown!! isn’t that the cutest!! So drama aside, I am really very, very, very grateful to have these people who love me.. even when some of the other people who love me suck. ♥♥♥